Now that I am back, I’ve been trying to figure out what this will look like in terms of blogging, updates, how it will all work, etc.
What I’ve come to is this: I’ll be posting once a week, most likely every Friday with an update on current weight, how the week went in terms of food and exercise, and any other random thoughts going on in my head (as scary as that might be)
Ok, so first things first. Got on the scale this morning, and it read 219. Hell Yes.
I will gladly take a 5 pound jumpstart. I call it a jumpstart because I’m not going to sit here and fool myself, I am totally aware that it was just my body’s initial reaction to getting strict on the eating and getting more active again. It’s not lost on me that that was just a first step and all the rest of the pounds are going to much, much harder to get off. That being said, I’m not going to be too proud to celebrate it either.
This was a potentially hairy first full week, day off in the middle to celebrate AJ’s birthday on the beach at the Jersey shore. Now if I have learned anything the first time around, it’s that 1- One day of eating will not undo the hard work you have put in up until that point, and 2- I will not let a family day out be pressured or stressed because I am so focused on being locked in on what I’m eating. (I made that mistake once, and after that meal- actually during that meal- vowed to myself never again) I’m not saying I’ll be mainlining biscuits and gravy, but if we are at the beach/on the boardwalk and want to stop and grab some pizza for dinner, maybe even get some ice cream or (gasp!) fudge for dessert I’m not going to think twice about it. But I managed to stay on point all week, didn’t go crazy on the off day and came out of it all heading in the right direction. I’m calling this a successful week.
As for workouts, I’m a little off but will be making it up on the weekend. What I did get in though, was spectacular. I put everything out there that I want to get serious and back to where I want to be, and the running gods repayed me for it. My 5K run on Tuesday was the fastest I have done in some time. I was able to hold down a smoking fast pace (for me). It was great, kind of miserable, but great. …and it was super encouraging and much needed. Then after that I had an appointment to get my knee looked at by an orthopedic specialist. As he is looking at my legs during the initial exam he stops, looks at me and says “so, you’re a runner”. You bet your ass I am, doc. We got home very late from the beach on Wed night and I still had to go to work, so I ended up skipping my early morning run on Thursday. I don’t see how good it would have been on approx. 4 hours sleep anyway. Acceptable loss in my opinion. Today I was back on the horse. 2 easy paced miles and then a quick ride on the bike to keep myself loose. I run long tomorrow, aiming for 9-12 miles in a practice run for my upcoming relay race where I’ll be covering a dozen miles as I run the first 2 legs of the relay. I’m actually really looking forward to that.
I’m still adjusting to the idea of being back and being so structured. I have not had to change too much, the main thing now is that I am paying attention all the time and not cheating/ deviating from the plan. No more, “oh, I’ll just eat that and not log it”. No more late night snacking (that KILLED ME). It was all the little things that added up on me, which is kind of reassuring because in theory, if I cut out those little things I still have the underlying good habits and tendencies as a base. It’s just the practice of cutting them out that is so much harder than the theory. I’ve caught myself a few times after we get the kids down to bed and clean up the house from the day just mindlessly wandering into the kitchen, catching myself and just thinking “what the hell are you doing in here?”. For me, it really comes down to staying strong, staying mindful of what I am doing. Especially late at night when I’m tired. I am totally hardcore all day, and then for some reason I am ok in undoing it all and allowing the wheels to have the possibility of falling off the bus hours later. Let’s avoid that, shall we?
Ok, enough rambling for now. Thanks for reading and I will be back soon.
Stay strong and have a good one.